“That is when greatness will happen”

Ragnar: I’m not going to stand here all day watching you try to be normal when you never will be.
Ivar: I am normal!
Ragnar: No, you’re not. Once you realize that, that is when greatness will happen.

For those not familiar with the television series – Ivar, son of legendary Viking Ragnar Lothbrok, struggles to keep up with their band of warriors – despite being crippled since childbirth.  Ivar eventually goes on to become an extremely powerful and famous warrior.  In this scene, Ragnar becomes frustrated with Ivar’s attempts to be “normal”, telling him, “No, you’re not (normal).  Once you realize that, that is when greatness will happen.”

Powerful.  That was my thought as I let those words sink in.  And while they could mean different things to different people, to me they took on a highly personal significance.  Don’t get me wrong; I am extremely blessed with excellent health and no physical detriments whatsoever.  Still, I have struggled throughout my life with finding a niche, fitting in, finding acceptance, approval, etc.  I’ve often felt “uncomfortable in my own skin”, out of place, and have found it difficult to connect with people.  I’ve been unhappy in my employment and in relationships.  While I can get along with most anyone, I’ve had few friends.  I feel like I’ve constantly teetered on the brink of doing what I thought was expected of me versus doing what I really wanted.  I’ve been shunned by my own family for silly things, left out, been the “black sheep”.  And I’ve been badly hurt by people who I should have never let into my life.

Throughout, I’ve always maintained a positive attitude – there’s so much in my life to be thankful for, and some of these more personal things seem petty in the big picture.  Still…. I am often dissatisfied and find it an effort to determine what I truly want out of life.  And I wonder about some of the things that have happened to me.  Fortunately, age has a way of helping us figure out what really matters.  With the passing years, we care less about what people think of us.  Maybe that’s why Ragnar’s words had the impact on me that they did.  I think of them again, “Once you realize that, that is when greatness will happen.”  He’s telling Ivar to realize and accept that he is NOT normal – to even embrace that fact!

That is what I want to do!  I want to embrace my uniqueness, my differences from others, all those things that have made me not “fit in” with the people I thought I should.  I want to stop trying to be something I’m not so that I can become who I am!  I feel that once I let myself be ME – the person I truly am – perhaps that is when I will find that particular niche that needs ME to fill it.  I think what this is all about is staying true to yourself and embracing the person you really are.  That is when you will attract the right people for you, and will go to the places where you should be – that is when greatness will happen!


Déjà Vu


Long, low rumbles emitting from a cloudless, blue sky

a sky as bright and sunny as the fourth of July.

The wind and the smells, temperature too

memories of a childhood summer, déjà vu…

the place has changed but the time is true.

Life abounds in mystery,

so much there that we can’t see

this doesn’t mean it isn’t real.

So much unexplained, and how do you feel

when someone tries to tell you what to believe?

Your god, my god; your book or mine?

When no one really knows, what is truly divine.

What we need to do is to look around

at the beauty and the magic as it abounds

expecting nothing from us but our admiration

and the contemplation of our good fortune

before it’s too late…

While those unseen predict our fate.